This is a personal blog by a soon-to-be London mum about the joys and – quite frankly – bloody awful bits of pregnancy, birth and motherhood. It is based on the premise that a happy baby needs a happy mum and explores what makes me and baby happy leading up to the birth and beyond
At the start of July 2012 my life changed courtesy of Clearblue as I discovered I was pregnant with my first child. I was overwhelmed with a series of emotions ranging from sheer panic, happiness, excitement, worry, fear and a feeling of loss for the life I once had.
I’m Sasha Kerr and I write The Happiness Project London in my other guise as curious happiness-seeking Londoner but I felt that this forum wasn’t the place to deal with all the stuff pregnancy has thrown at me.
Because for me, it’s been a pretty hard slog. And I really need to have a moan about it.
Pregnancy has given me hives, nipple thrush, a pelvis that doesn’t quite fit properly and a belly that sticks out in all the wrong places. It’s made me itch all over, hunched on all fours like a dog. It’s made me feel ugly, undignified and humilated. I’ve been bursting into tears and shouting at my husband for filling the dishwasher wrongly. I’ve been pining wine. I’ve been on antibiotics, antihistimines, steroid cream and I’ve been allergic to pregnancy vitamins.
But of course there is a gorgeous little baby at the end of all this and it’s not been all bad. I have at times, fleetingly, felt beautiful and glowing and swelling in a very womanly way. I like my changing body and settling down to cosy nights in and nesting. I’m positive about our future, me and this wee thing, and how much fun we’re going to have.
So as well as using this as a forum to have a moan and to share my indignities with other mums, I also want to explore how to be happy during this pregnancy and how to have a happy baby at the end of it all. I want to use this blog to:
– work out the best way to have a stress free pregnancy, and to see if this makes for a stress-free baby
– be honest about the downsides and negatives (physical and emotional) and work out ways to overcome them
– try out all the tricks possible to make birth an easy and pleasant experience – hyno-birthing, active birth yoga, and relaxation
– debunk all the myths and make my own rules about motherhood
It will be quite a journey but I’m looking forward to it. I started here in my first HPL post about my impending pregnancy: http://thehappinessprojectlondon.wordpress.com/2012/09/13/the-happy-baby-project/. I wonder where we shall go next?